… but what happened this morning has put me into such a state of shock i can barly type…

….

MY LITTLE SISTER HAS STARTED HER FIRST PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!

what has this world come to? i always kind of assumed she’d be little forever, and she’s not…

XP well anyways i g2g, i have to catch my bus to camp

- alex louise

p.s.

i lied, i didn’t get a boyfriend.

i just wanted to scare Jessica Lynn.

^-^

 SUMMER TIME HAS COME!!!!

you can imagine how happy I am right now, i couldn't wait to get outta school, things were getting a little (ok, a lot) crazy.

. . . . . . . . . 

so now i am going to be boring and talk about the book i'm, wrighting and record the characters so i don't forget them (i forget my characters, i know i'm sad)

ok, in the order in which they appear in the story:

Crowe/Jared: Ok, this guy is 23 and is a traveler. he travels from town to town preforming for a couple bars every now and then for some extra cash. ran away when he was 14, is well known and well liked.

Willow/Becky: Willow is 14 and recently ran away from home. Crowe found her near-dead by a river and saved her life. after that she pretty much decides that since she has nothing better to do with her life that she would travel with crowe.

Samson/Fish: Crowe's cat (errr, kitten) he's grayish blue and has only three legs. very spunky and likes to cause trouble.

Mary Jane/MJ: A black elf. She is the leader of her hunting squad and captures willow in a trap. Crowe goes and gets willow but ends up taking MJ with the group (based this character off of Mary J. Blige who i'm convinced is an elf)

Otto: Vampire, very old. mysterious, cold haven't really got to much to say about him. appears to be 17

Milo: Otto's Robot sister. appears very human except for her ears which are long, macanical and white. appears and acts 10 and is cheery and sweet. Is a hydrolic robot which gives her the abillity the "cry" "bleed" and "sweat"

 . . . . . . . . .

now that i recorded that i will go and do things with my life

-Alex Lousie 

 So I basically get the rest of the week off to relax (other than that movie report i'm doing on friday) so life is kinda sweet right now. Nick lost the baseball game against me so i'm happy.

advise to anybody who feels like listening: if you need to get over a guy, just get mad at him for a really stupid reason (or not-so stupid reason- your choice) it works for me.

ok, so i'm not mad at nick, i just concluded that there is no possible way a 13 year old girl knows what it really means to be in love, meaning i'm not in love with nick.which means that I'm just his friend who thinks she's in love with him. so, by coming to that result- i got over him.

isn't it nice how common sence can help situations out a whole bunch?

yes, well, i'm going to go fry my brain cells playing video games if you don't mind. or maybe i'll whach some baseball… either way i'm going, so byes

- alex louise

today I've got no sad story to dump on you guys out there- It's getting kinda old. I don't know, sometimes I just get tired of being depressed. So I'm not anymore…

Yes, So it all works out in the end I guess… I guess that gives me some time to ramble on about myself…

 …

ok, so My name Is alex (short for alexandra) but everybody calls me alex louise or just Lou for short. I have Irish and Amenian heritage mostly, but I pretty much everything. I was born in New York, which is where i got my accent, but my parents move me and my sister to california. And gosh damn it- somebody needs to put out the sun. It's so sunny out here that people are always getting headaches and running their cars into innocent little 3rd grades(yes i'm exaggerating) well anyways- back to me. I'm blonde and pale and round with soft features. and that's about all- wait, my favorite food is mac' and cheese(just thought you needed to know that..).

yes.. and now i will do my homework that i have been putting off

c yas

- Alex Louise   

 that thing that breaks you in every way and heals you up again just because it can. I wanted it so bad. so bad it hurt. because high school ment seeing him again. It ment falling in love. It ment somebody wanting me. But now that it's so close I want to cry. I want to be 5 and flat again. I really, really do. but that wont happen.

I mean, high school is the big deal- I've got to work for my future. And it wont be easy, but i can do it. the thing is, i'm scared it'll pass me by too fast too handle. I'm so scared. Middle school was so fast- I can't even remember most of it, it went by so fast. I have nothing. nothing to give, nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing to remember. Nothing but my intense fear and loathing of the future.

 and the worst part is- none of my friends who are going to high School as well as me seem to understand how torn up inside I am.

- alex louise

 I mean, how many smart people do you know that let everything special in there life go? Like my intellegence- it's like it never exsisted bacuase I never use it. but that's not what I mean when I say someting is wrong with me.

I mean how can I like some one as much as I like Nick and just stand bye and let him go? I mean, no, he's not him, he's not that person, but he's the only peson who comes close considering that I let him go a long time ago. And the worst part is that I help him, he tells me the latest girl(he always chooses girls that will never like him back) and I try to help him get her. Wait, never mind there's something worse, He knows I like him- I tell him all the fucking time- but he drags me into his obsessions with other girls without even thinking about how I feel. And today he told me- to my face- that he just doesn't care. at all. and I guess I already knew that but I still wnna fucking kill him anyways.

I mean I never expected Nick to like me- I'm not as pretty as most girls. I'm overweight and blonde- the two worst combinations on the planet- and even though I know this, I can't help but hope that he could just try to like me. 

don't get me wrong- I'm not all depressed of anything- I mean, I'm not ugly. I'm pretty in a plain, round, homely sort of way. And I'm not even fat- just overweight (there is a difference)

I guess I might not even like Nick at all to begin with, I just say I do because I miss him, and it hurts. alot. I don't know- I'm just really confused. How do you know if you like someone or love someone? Is there even a difference?

so confused…

- Alex Louise  

 this is what happens when you are born with the intellegence of a rocket scientist (one incapable of spelling) and the common sence of my 4 year old brother. You end up having all your teachers telling you "oh, Alex, you've got so much more potential- that's why we put you in classes two years ahead of your grade level- but we would appreciate if you actually turned in your homework. and on time too." and then they actually expect me to do it. yes, yes- i'm fully aware that i'll never get into a good college this way (my parents let me know this frequently) and yes, i'm actually attempting to change this insufferable habit of mine.

 The one thig that pisses me off though, is that my parents think just because I'm smart enough to be a rocket scientist- I have to be a rocket scientist (you know- the whole "reach your full potential" thing)(plus they want me to be rich enough to put them in a fancy retierment home type thing) when all i want to do with my life is write novels. that's it. I don't even want to be smart- just give me a pencil and some paper and i'm fine.

 now though- i have to write up my stupid reaserch paper.

- Alex Louise

Jessica feels like sitting on me- but I guess that's okay, as long as she doesn't squish me- and it's nice and early in the morning. There's a nice breeze going on, and I guess I'm okay.

okay- here's jessica's site http://tropicalparadice.wordpress.com/

I don't mind being blonde today. or maybe I never did to begin with- I just said I did because I like being difficult. I don't particulaly enjoy be difficult or sarcastic, I guess I just am. so enough with this excessive rambling (I tend to ramble)

I've never bathed In yogert. 

- Alex Louise

 …..

anyways, Jessica showed me this site- so go visit her site and comment in a foriegn language so she doesn't know what the hell you're saying and gets all mad at me. oh well. that's okay…. and now i am leaving you. love me. i love you too. oh god, i'm rambling.

 bye

Alex louise